I feel that you need to hear this again:
I love you.
You have no idea of how much I love you.
You have no idea of how many people love you.
You have no idea of how much you are loved.
You were, are, and always will be immensely loved.
My love for you is not conditional.
I love you regardless of anything.
I love you anyway.
I love you just the way you are.
I want you to be happy, and knowing that you are happy makes me happy.
So, stop with all the nonsense.
Have some self-compassion.
Accept the forgiveness and the love that were given to you.
Forgive yourself as you already have been completely forgiven.
Know that you are loved, and love yourself today.
And God said “Love Your Enemy,” and I obeyed him and loved myself. ~ Kahlil Gibran