Day 22 of the Silent Journey

I am a source of peace.

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At this stage of my life I came to realize that I am what I think, what I say, and what I do.

So, conscious of this enormous power, here’s who I am:

I am a good man.

I am kind and gentle.

I am patient and generous.

… loving, giving and forgiving.

… caring, considerate, sensitive and supportive.

… benevolent, thoughtful and compassionate.

… humble, meek and mild.

… trustworthy, respectful, honest and authentic.

… friendly, helpful and cooperative.

… cheerful, positive, and optimistic.

… hopeful and confident.

… joyful and happy.

… peaceful and serene.

… content and satisfied.

… whole, perfect and complete.

I am awake and alert.

I am aware and alive.

I live in awe and keep calling others to see the wonder around us.

I live in the Divine Mystery and help reveal it.

I am here for you.
I am here for you.

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Day 21 of the Silent Journey

I made a decision… I have decided to give, not to take away. 

I am aware that every thing I do, no matter how insignificant, can be a contribution to the Universe; or not. I am grateful for all tasks that come my way, and I do each one of them with attention and with the intention of giving my best contribution for the betterment of the world. This practice of doing with sincere attention and selfless intention is what brings meaning and quality to my life.

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Guided by Mother Teresa I have learned that I don’t have to be concerned with doing extraordinary things. I just need to do every thing, no matter how small, with great love, because great love produces extraordinary results. Great love operates miracles. Great love transforms even the most ordinary in extraordinary. Therefore, what I do does not matter as much as the amount of love I put into the doing.

I made a decision… I have decided to put great love into my doing — love for the task at hand and love for the people who will benefit from it. 

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Day 20 of the Silent Journey

I give thanks.

I was taken to a place of forgiveness, and what a beautiful place it is!

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I learned to forgive those who have hurt me. I realized that they didn’t know what they were doing. They didn’t know better.

I learned to forgive myself for having hurt others. I, too, didn’t know what I was doing. I didn’t know better.

At this stage of my journey, I have realized how difficult it is to go back and fix what I have broken. I came to realize that the best I can do — the best contribution I can give to the world — is to be genuinely kind, patient, and generous with whoever happens to be in front of me at any given time. Helping those who are hurting — especially those the Forces of the Universe bring to me — is the best way I know to make amends for my past mistakes.

I help those who are hurting to heal, and what a blessing this is!

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Day 19 of the Silent Journey

“Is this it? Is this all that there is?”

Asking for more, I was told to go deeper.

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Instead of staying on the surface, where I was familiar with the territory and felt safe, I went deeper into the mystery, and the Mystery revealed itself to me.

In the inner room I experienced God’s love. I felt deeply loved, but, still, undeserving of that love. More than anything else, the guilt I felt for the mistakes I made in the past prevented me from accepting God’s love completely. As I went deeper into the silence, all those issues that had been hurting me began to be revealed. In the beginning, I was apprehensive, and felt the urge to retreat to the surface, to the safety of the familiar territory. But I soon learned that I would be OK; God would only reveal what I was able to handle. As the wounds emerged, God guided me to simply yield, surrender, and let God do the healing. I became able to look back at my life, face all the pain and suffering I went through, and forgive others. I became able to look back at my life, face all the pain and suffering I inflicted, and forgive myself. I experienced an exhilarating feeling of liberation through total forgiveness. I pardoned and was pardoned. I was healed.

Now, I feel deeply loved, just as I am. Now, I feel that I am whole, perfect, complete. Now, in the inner room, I experience God’s unconditional love, and I accept it completely. Now — maybe for the first time in my life — I am truly able to receive God’s unlimited love, and I receive it in such large quantities that I have plenty of love to give. I am a giver of love, and I give it with conviction. I am a conduit of God’s love; it flows through me and blesses many. And the more I give, the more I receive.

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Day 18 of the Silent Journey

In awe and wonder, I see God everywhere.

I see beauty and miracles all around me.

I feel that I am surrounded by God and immersed in God.

God is the fluid in which I exist.

God is where I move, where I breathe, where I live, where I have my very being.

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I am in God and God is in me.

God is everywhere, therefore, all things are sacred.

We all are parts of the same divine whole and each part is holy.

I am a part of God, not apart from God.

I’m in you. You’re in me.

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Day 17 of the Silent Journey

I Connect, Communicate and Commune with God. Deepening my relationship with God, I feel God’s presence, I hear God, and experience God’s love. I experience the highest type of unity: communion with God and with all life. I feel that we are all one, that we are all interconnected.

I came to realize that God is always with me, hugging me. I don’t need to attend an elaborate ritual to be with God. I don’t need to go to a special place to be with God. I don’t need an intermediary to connect with God. I don’t need a special time to be with God. I don’t need to recite memorized words put together by someone else to connect with God. All I need is to be in committed relationship with God. In this relationship, I, more than anything else, listen. I don’t need to ask for anything, because God knows what I need. All I have to do is feel God’s presence, feel God’s love, and listen to what God wants from me. I am with God, and God is with me, all the time. I came to realize that I have the power to either include or exclude God from my life, and I have invited God to be with me at all times.

Sometimes, when I think about the methods I have been taught and have been using to Connect, Communicate, and Commune with God, I imagine that God gets bored with the same old rituals and old prayers, with me reciting and asking the same things over and over again. With a smile on my face, I imagine God saying, “O no; not again! Can’t you come up with something new, something creative and fun? Can’t you celebrate life and show your joy? What have you done with the creativity that I have given you? I don’t need you to worship me. I want you to feel my love for you. I want you to allow me to be with you at all times. I want you to listen to me. I want you to take good care of the Garden and the Playground that I have given you, enjoy life, have fun, and take care of one another.”

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For me, prayer is relationship; prayer is connection, communication and communion, and I do pray all the time. I live a prayer-full life — a life full of prayer — because I am in relationship with God. All I have to do is to be aware that God is present, and that I am in God’s presence all the time. And that’s easy; by paying attention and being alert I see manifestations of the Divine everywhere. Miracles abound and surround me all the time. I feel that God is giving me gifts all the time. I feel loved. I live in awareness of God’s presence. That’s all that is needed, and that is enough.

I have direct access to God, and God is with me all the time.

There is never, ever, a moment in my life when I am separated from God.

God is always present, even in my suffering.

God is always with me, and worthiness has nothing to do with it.

Smile! God has blessed me with this relationship, and a similar relationship is available to you too!

Life is good! Life is great! Enjoy it!

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Day 16 of the Silent Journey

What is this thing I call prayer? Why do I pray? Do I need to belong to a church and worship? Is God a needy being that demands to be worshipped? Why do I go to mass? Isn’t it to commune with God?

Once I started to pray in silence, I felt a deeper connection with God. Actually I experienced Connection, Communication and Communion with God, something that I came to refer to as “The 3 Cs.”

Once I began praying in silence I realized that silent prayer was allowing me to Connect, Communicate, and Commune with God at a much deeper level than all the other rituals and practices I had engaged before in my life. Through silent prayer, I came to understand that all prayer is relationship, and, in my case, I not only chose the kind of relationship I wanted, but, as perplexing as it may sound, I also chose the kind of god I wanted to relate to. I chose to develop a loving and gentle relationship with a loving and gentle god. During this process, I also became more loving and gentle with my own self, and better able to find love and gentleness in other individuals as well.

Here’s the god that I have found in Centering Prayer… or the god that I have created for me… or the god that God has created for me: I have found a god who desires a relationship with me, a god who wants to be my close friend.

 

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God is my friend.

I experience a friendship like no other with God.

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Day 15 of the Silent Journey

So, why am I here?

I am here to learn and to teach.

I am here to explore and to inspire.

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I am here to learn to yield, surrender and let go.

I am here to experience my death and my resurrection before my own physical death.

I am here to experience the death of my false ego, with all its need to feel needed and important.

I am here to experience the birth of a deep awareness that I am an eternal spiritual being having a temporary human experience.

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I am here to go through that radical transformation that will allow me to learn to die before I actually die.

I am here to go through that radical transformation that will allow me to experience my resurrection as a spiritual being while I am still alive.

I am here to wake up and see.

A new consciousness. A new awareness. A new life.

Smile!

You are free!

Life is good!

Life is great!

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Day 14 of the Silent Journey

I understood that all I have is the gift of the present moment, and I have accepted God’s invitation to be still.

I let go of the distracting thoughts, noises, and sensations, and I focus on my breathing.

I am present, beyond words, beyond thoughts, beyond moods.

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I realize that life is lived one breath at a time, and that I will continue to live one breath at a time, until that time when I will breathe for one last time.

I realize that I am on my way to that final breath when, willingly or not, I will have to yield, surrender, and let go.

I welcome the opportunities that life gives me to practice yielding, surrendering, and letting go. I am getting good at it. I am getting ready for a peaceful transition on that moment of final surrender, when I will have to let go of all attachments, all desires, and when all power and wealth will be of no use.

I am going home. And so are you.

Life is good. Life is great.

And so is death.

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Day 13 of the Silent Journey

I am a child. I love to be loved. I want to be loved.

“Do you see me? I am worthy of receiving your love. Love me, please. Am I worthy of your love?”

I am an adult, but I’m still the same child who craves love and affection. I want to be loved. I want attention, recognition and praise. I need to feel admired. I need to feel needed.

“Do you see me? Do you see all that I have accomplished? Do you see all that I have done? I deserve to be loved. Please, love me. Am I worthy of your love?”

Years passed and I realized that I don’t need to do anything, or prove to anyone that I am worthy of receiving love. I don’t need external approval and praise anymore to be happy. In my contemplative moments I have experienced and continue to experience God’s unconditional love for me. God loves me just as I am, and worthiness has nothing to do with it. I deserve to be loved and admired just as I am. I am divine. I am worthy. I am at peace.

“Lord. I am worthy to receive you! I am worthy to receive your love! And I know that you love me unconditionally.”

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As I age, all the descriptors that I used to give meaning and importance to my existence begin to drift away; they are just memories. I don’t need to tell my story anymore. I don’t need to let others know how important I was, and how deserving of admiration I am.

At the end of the day, I will find myself asking the question, “Who am I?’ and the answer I hopefully will find is, “I am God’s beloved son.” And I will be reminded again that worthiness has nothing to do with God’s unconditional and infinite love for me.

Yes, I am worthy of receiving love!

Yes, I am loved!

And so are you.

Smile! Life is good! Life is great!

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Day 12 of the Silent Journey

I lived a great part of my life in a state of constant stress. I felt guilty when I felt that I was not being productive. Instead of rejoicing in what I had done and accomplished, I spent a lot of my time anxiously thinking about what there was to be done that I didn’t do. In all honesty, this habit, this way of thinking, still takes hold of me every now and then.

Why it has been so difficult for me to give myself permission to reduce the speed, drop out of the race — even if just for a short while — and enjoy life more?

Thinking about it… Permission!? That’s so foolish! Who is prohibiting me?

I lived a great part of my life under a stressful, self-imposed mandate that I had to be productive all the time. I was conditioned to believe that if I was not doing something productive — whatever that would be — I was at fault. Whenever I was idle, I felt uncomfortable. And it wasn’t only self-reproach that I experienced; whenever I decided to slow down, or take time off, I also felt disapproval from those around me, individuals who, just like me, had been similarly conditioned.

“What? You are going to take time off to go on a bike ride?”

“What? You are going to take time off to go to a silent retreat?”

Today I do not feel guilty when I am at leisure, when I am giving time to myself, when I am doing what I want to do. I am able to relax and enjoy because I am completely convinced that recreation is truly an essential time for re-creation.

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I am fortunate to have Paul in my life, a friend who constantly reminds me that “We are human beings, not human doings!”

After reflecting a lot upon his words I began to practice to focus more on the being and less on the doing, and I came to realize that, actually, there’s nothing wrong with the doing, especially when I am doing what I like.

Doing what I like makes me happy and lively. For instance, I love to think and write, learn and teach, explore and inspire, and I feel that when I am engaged in these activities I fulfill my destiny and give my best contribution to the world. When I am doing what I like, I immerse myself in the here-now, and I lose track of time. When I am doing what I like, I am awake, aware, and alert. When I am doing what I like, I am not DOING; I am actually BEING. When I am doing what I like, I AM.

So, in my attempt to BE more and DO less — and realizing that inevitably I would always be doing something — I decided to do less of what I didn’t like, and more of what I did like… or to like more what I did. By the way, I owe this one, first, to Billy Preston, and, second, to Stephen Stills, the two singer-songwriters who came up with, “If you can’t be with the one you love, love the one you’re with.” In the context of our conversation here, their suggestion would accurately translate to “If you can’t do what you like, like what you do.”

Instead of obsessing so much with doing, doing, doing, I began to practice to, simply, be grateful… be happy, content, and satisfied with myself, with whom I am, with what I have, and with the work at hand.

By doing so, I have been able to increase doing what I like and decrease doing what I don’t like. By doing more of what I like — and liking more what I do — I can say that I am in the process of becoming less and less a ‘human-doing.’ and more and more a ‘human-being,’ gently getting ready for that time in the future when I will do nil and be all.

Paul, by the way, is the same friend who persistently reminds me of my spiritual nature:  “You are not really a human being. You are just being human,” he says.

So, even without having any proof of it, I have decided to embrace the idea that I am an eternal spiritual being having a temporary human experience.

I have decided, also, to embrace the idea that in the spiritual realm I am already perfect, whole and complete, what lead me to conclude that I don’t need to struggle anymore because nothing is missing.

I love these ideas. They bring me a lot of comfort and peace.

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Day 11 of the Silent Journey

In this overly competitive and selfish culture we live in, I was constantly pushed to focus on what I wanted to achieve. I was trained, from an early age, to focus on my desires. I was coached to imagine what I wanted to own, and what kind of life I wanted to live. Then, I was directed to figure out, pretty much on my own, what I needed to do to get those things. I was directed to the ‘do-have-be’ illusion. I was told that if I did a lot, I would have a lot, and then I would be a lot. I wasn’t coached to discover who I was, what gifts God had given me, and what contribution I could give to the world. I was instructed in a very selfish discipline of looking solely after ‘Me, Myself, and I.’

Well, today I recognize that this is the mindset that leads to violence. We live very violent lives because we put ourselves in motion to selfishly get what we want, and we see others either as as objects to be used to achieve our goals, or obstacles that must be removed from our paths. We engage in a single-handed fight against the world, ready to crush anyone who gets on our way. “It is my way or the highway,” we say. We live every moment of our lives immersed in fear, suspicion, violence, stress, and anxiety.

Well, this didn’t work, and it never will.

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Today I solemnly declare that I had enough of this, and I don’t want any of this anymore.

Today I solemnly declare that I am moving to the land of cooperation and collaboration, where trust, respect, honesty, integrity, friendliness, gentleness, kindness, compassion, generosity, peace, and unity abound.

Today I solemnly declare that I will express my desires and work to achieve them, but I will let go of the need to control the outcomes.

Today I solemnly declare that things don’t have to be my way.

Today I solemnly declare that, without any resistance, I surrender and yield to God, accepting everything that comes my way, and letting God lead the way.

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